Confessions 1

This is supposed to be a secret Confessions thing that i want to write to myself

If you found this thats great, but lets keep it to ourselves... ;)

I would like to address all my actions first

I can feel that i am being more and more of an ass..

WorldCupClassroom Domination, WWE, Violent outburst..

I wish i get simple moodswings like you guys do...

But i dont know why... I mask my "Lousy" feelings with

a)Laughter

b)Pain Or suffering

That's why I make people laugh, Or i make them suffer(physically)

I have no idea why i do this.. but i have a gut feeling that its my Moodswings

Some People can emo their day away... but for me i wish i can emo.. and even if i tried emo, I'd always try to do swantons or high fliers on my bed...

2ndly I dont want people to think of me as a giant loser thats why i go about training myself for the worst... In case i get a 7 on 1 situation like john cena did, at least i can destroy 4 or 5 man with rkos or supplexes...

3rdly i want to make a statement for myself i no longer want to be the idiot of the class, i wanna rock, but i also want to succeed no body likes to be labled failure..

Next I do all these extreme stunts on others because they are dangerous (yeah i know theyre fake) but i have this "kick" when i do all these.. Sadist? Prolly...

4th i do these to mask my weakness... I have a terrible fitness level.. the only way i feel safe is if i can do 20 rkos without feeling pain..

I dont want you guys to think of me as a person who enjoys dealing stuff with violence, but WWE helped me gain this confidence to continue..

i admit i suck at stamina so when it comes down to rugby, once i'a, tired i cant think straight, but seeing superstars enduring pain like nothing i've seen, i become more easily function to destroy others, to not give face about their identity (RI, SAS etc) their just men... if Men can defeat man, he is champ. Yes I want to be champ, thats why i do this, i fantasise of WWE. I fantacise of Glory...

I know its a huge leap from last year, I was so "good" but every since this may.. and wrestling entered my life again this confident boost came to me... i am confident that with wwe i can improve in alot of my daily aspects.. (studies, rugby, etc)

Godbless.