Confessions 3

the way i treat others,

I know i'm such a dick at times, but its just my these moodswings thing.

In my prev post about 666 and wwe, its kinda linked

I admit, I'm very straightfoward, and when that happens, i can "not use" my head and just blabber of my mouth

These emotions of Like Teasing and destroying is not cause by me truly, Its like this sudden testosterone outburst or smth.. its like those steriod users(yum... Lol Jk) get violent for nothing...

sometimes i ponder, if i had 10kg lesser, more speed to run in rugby would my negative energy go away, would i go back to my sec 1 days wehre everyone is "friends" and not "contenders" to be the WWE champ (god... WWE?!)

Honestly I dont like weice because he's not willing to help. But i hate my self more for being prideful.. i which i had more humility... But WWE is all about bragging rites.. and because of bragging rites, i some how secumb to the "reality" of wwe.. I want a theme song i want new challenges i want to be "aweeeeeeeeeeeeeesomeeeeeeeeeee" - AKA. the Miz

So I hope everyone can help me and remind me of my retardedness if i had blown my own temper.

Godbless

Confessions 2

My 666 and questioning of Related stuff...

Firstly i'd like to apologise to all Christians i approached, making them almost questioning their own religion..

My questions include

If Jesus born on 25th, is god 25th?

If god is so great why does he give satan the will to create diseases and kill?

etc etc etc

I know since this year, why i've become so interested in this...

Its taken over me... not satan

but this cruriosity.... hell, the devil, the angels, etc etc

and because of this i'm starting to think like a athiest...

I dont want to make such bad judgements in my life, not at this point

I hope that i can continue living normally as a kid and no longer a obsessed 666 dude..

Godbless

Confessions 1

This is supposed to be a secret Confessions thing that i want to write to myself

If you found this thats great, but lets keep it to ourselves... ;)

I would like to address all my actions first

I can feel that i am being more and more of an ass..

WorldCupClassroom Domination, WWE, Violent outburst..

I wish i get simple moodswings like you guys do...

But i dont know why... I mask my "Lousy" feelings with

a)Laughter

b)Pain Or suffering

That's why I make people laugh, Or i make them suffer(physically)

I have no idea why i do this.. but i have a gut feeling that its my Moodswings

Some People can emo their day away... but for me i wish i can emo.. and even if i tried emo, I'd always try to do swantons or high fliers on my bed...

2ndly I dont want people to think of me as a giant loser thats why i go about training myself for the worst... In case i get a 7 on 1 situation like john cena did, at least i can destroy 4 or 5 man with rkos or supplexes...

3rdly i want to make a statement for myself i no longer want to be the idiot of the class, i wanna rock, but i also want to succeed no body likes to be labled failure..

Next I do all these extreme stunts on others because they are dangerous (yeah i know theyre fake) but i have this "kick" when i do all these.. Sadist? Prolly...

4th i do these to mask my weakness... I have a terrible fitness level.. the only way i feel safe is if i can do 20 rkos without feeling pain..

I dont want you guys to think of me as a person who enjoys dealing stuff with violence, but WWE helped me gain this confidence to continue..

i admit i suck at stamina so when it comes down to rugby, once i'a, tired i cant think straight, but seeing superstars enduring pain like nothing i've seen, i become more easily function to destroy others, to not give face about their identity (RI, SAS etc) their just men... if Men can defeat man, he is champ. Yes I want to be champ, thats why i do this, i fantasise of WWE. I fantacise of Glory...

I know its a huge leap from last year, I was so "good" but every since this may.. and wrestling entered my life again this confident boost came to me... i am confident that with wwe i can improve in alot of my daily aspects.. (studies, rugby, etc)

Godbless.